I am applying for a job this week.

Like this title says I believe I will be applying for a job this week, though there is a chance i won't be it all depends.

I have a very hard time getting and applying for jobs because there is only so much I can do without wanting to bash my head in. I have considered applying for disability but from what I hear from other people who live in California, it's very hard to get it when you have Autism because there is a ton of people diagnosed with it and it's very hard to get on it with that condition. I'm not sure if this is true, but I have heard my friend's Mom complain about it, and how hard it was and I really just do not have the energy to apply, then get denied, then apply again with a lawyer to get the benefits. It's just not worth it. Though I know I'm going to have to eventually buckle down and do it if I cannot hold a job at all.

I am thinking of applying at the WalMart down the street from my house, because I can't drive it really limits my ability of jobs and the bus situation is something I would like to avoid because I really hate public transportation. I am going to ask to work 15 hours or less a week, and I'll take minimum wage, I don't mind. The problem is, I don't know what I would apply for.. i guess whatever job has the less interaction with other people, I have done cashiering once before and I really hated it because telling people how much they owed, and then giving htem their change and talking to them frightened me to an extent. I also did not like the fast paced atmosphere, which is what got me in trouble a lot of the time. I am very, very slow when it comes to scanning things, putting things in bags (all perfect too! It's all neat and nice, not messy!), and then putting them in their basket. It was just way too much for me to handle. I am thinking of applying for a door monitor, which basically means i stand by the door say "Welcome to Wal*Mart, have a nice day!" and look at their receit if they have an item not in a bag, and then they are on their way. It's not too difficult and it doesn't really require me to do much.

The one part of applying for a job I hate, is the personality test. Why do I hate it? Because I never understand how to answer the questions, in fact... there are many times where the questions are the exact same but worded differently and I tend to answer differently. My mom will stand next to me, read the question and tell me "OH, this is the same question as .. the one you answered earlier it's just worded differently," and yeah. Basically, for someone like me, I will not catch when a question is the same as a previous one when it is worded differently, because well.. the words are different. It would really help, if they would just ask different questions only. It would make applying a lot easier and I wouldn't have to bring my mom everywhere to help me with it.

The other problem is the interview, I am really bad at interviews. I don't know what to say, and when they ask "Why do you want to work here?" the answer is not to be "So I can get money!"even if it's the truth, they apparently want some long hard well thought out reason as to why you want to work at Wal*Mart that will make you sound all smart or something. But in reality, I just want money. I don't really care about Wal*Mart per se, I just need money.

We'll see how it goes. eep.